I know you are weary. I know that right now you are sitting and sighing out all the tension of a days work. You look around your home and you see all the things that still need to be done and you drop your head. You wish for ten minutes that every spot in the house would be clean, and that all the children would stay in their beds so you can have five minutes of perfect peace.
Tears well up in your eyes as all-too-familiar thoughts come to mind, I was too harsh. Why did I wish for bedtime so quickly? I am wishing my precious time away with them. Oh...but I couldn't stand the crying anymore. Am I a bad mother? Why can't I do everything that <insert name> does? I should really clean the baseboards. Do I have baseboards? These thoughts, and thoughts like them, start running and spiraling out of control. You wish for perfection and a Pinterest life, and are overwhelmed and frustrated when it doesn't turn out that way.
You are not alone in your frustrations. Lower the bar on yourself. This does not indicate failure, but will give you room to breathe. You deserve to breathe. Take a room a day; a half room a day. Keep the pestilence away and stop just surviving. You deserve to sit down at the end of a long day and feel accomplished. Fed the kids? Everyone happy and healthy? You have done your job. Everything else comes in its time.
One day these short years of little ones and dirty floors will be a memory. You will have sparkling floors and clean tables (maybe even laundry caught up!), but for now enjoy your moment. Enjoy the lives and love that surround you. I know you're tired; but in the end all this will be worth it.
There are no ways to be a perfect mother...but a million ways to be a good one.
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